I want to give God all the glory for everything that has transpired over the last 2 weeks and really my whole life… He has had this plan laid out for a long time. The feeling of immense gratitude I have right now is bursting out of my pores and I just have to put in writing my thanks. I am completely blown away by His grace and mercy in Steve and my life! If I can use Steve and my story for any type of recognition I want that recognition and acknowledgement to be how great God is! Do not praise me or Steve; praise the LORD – He is good. Please do not be discouraged in whatever circumstances life has thrown you, like I was, God is good even when our faith and strength waiver. I find so much comfort that God works and His power is made perfect in our weakness.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
1 – First of all He answered my prayer! All last month I was praying for a miracle – boy, did he deliver!!! I was struggling with my faith. I wrote a blog entitled “I am Angry at God” last month because that is how I felt. Eventually, (probably just out of sheer exhaustion) I surrendered and begged God to show me He had not forgotten me, to show me that He still loved Steve and I, and to show me that He still had plans to prosper us and not to harm us. He showed me his love in the most unexpected way imaginable.
2 – God placed it on THOUSANDS of people’s hearts to reach out to me, to pray for my husband and me, and to encourage us. I cannot even begin to express how overwhelming it is to get messages from people literally around the WORLD saying they are thinking about you and praying for you. The peace and encouragement Steve and I have felt from all the prayers has been incredible and so very needed.
3 – The friendships that I have made from people reaching out to me has been heartwarming. People who are living donors, recipients of transplants, people on dialysis, people in the process of hopefully donating a kidney to someone, people who are battling other health issues, and people who just were touched by our story. I have not had the opportunity to respond to everyone but the conversations that I have had with the people I have been able to respond to have been so uplifting and I hope I was able to encourage some of you as much as you encouraged me. If you have reached out and I have not responded I am sorry, I very much appreciate the time you took to message me. The generosity/love/kindness has been so humbling from everyone who has reached out. God bless you all!
4 – Another way God has blessed me is something that makes me a little uncomfortable to talk about – finances. Steve and I take pride in working hard and providing for ourselves and our foster children. With Steve’s health issues things have been difficult financially because he was out of work for awhile and then was only able to work part time due to his dialysis schedule. I had no idea how we were going to make it work in order to continue to pay our bills while we were both out of work recovering. It is so hard to ask for help and neither Steve nor I felt comfortable doing that. The night I posted the video I got a message from Jonathan, he was a stranger at the time but now he is a good friend. I seriously cannot wait to meet him and his wife in person! He sent me a message, “I’d like to do something to help.” I kind of dismissed the comment and thanked him for his kindness thinking he was just being nice and not really feeling comfortable accepting help from a stranger. Then he started telling me how he was going to help and he immediately went to work to help alleviate some of the financial burden. His generosity, action, and determination in helping us is humbling and so very much appreciated. I am really happy he reached out and I think that we will be friends for life! He was just one of the many people who have stepped up and helped Steve and I financially and we are seriously blown away that so many people would give of their personal resources to bless us.
5 – Lastly, (this is definitely not an exhaustive list but I don’t think anyone would want to read as long as I could write about how God has blessed me) God has blessed my socks off by renewing my spirit! I have felt so discouraged and now I feel uplifted. I have not been able to pour into others as much as I want to because of how empty I was feeling. When I shared my blog about being angry at God my godfather messaged me and told me not to forget that God was the God of all circumstances and “yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me.” I responded that I knew that but I had grown weary of the valley and longed to be guided beside quiet waters and for my soul to be renewed. God heard my cries and answered my prayers. I am sure Steve and I will have struggles in the next few weeks but I am so glad I am approaching the next phase of our life with a renewed, encouraged spirit.
God bless you all!! Seriously thank you for your support, encouragement, and love. I will keep you updated as our story unfolds so you can praise God alongside of us for all He has done and continues to do. August 9th and 10th I will be going for 2 days of additional testing, if everything goes well surgery could be just a few short weeks after that.